Sad/depressive feelings? What to do?

Cami Tea’s Remedy for emotions

Earlier this week I felt a sort of lump in my throat and my eyes a little heavy. No, I wasn’t sick. I felt a good cry brewing up. Yes, I know the energy of the Spring Equinox is stirring up emotions within us all and the ethers. As well, the amplification of any little emotion I feel to be magnetized because of the geographic location, I am situated in, Tulum. Tulum has a massive flow of energy, as it is located upon networking water tunnels, also known as cenotes. The water element being attributed to the emotional body, hence a magnification of emotions. However, I knew this was not an Experience to write off. It was a Cami Tea Experience to ride. More like when we look into the sky at Tulum beach and we see beautiful dark clouds coming closer and closer over the turquoise water. Gawking at the beauty and yet we know soon enough we are gonna have to take cover, or run into the water and be amidst the rain. Whatever we choose we know it is coming and it’s our choice of how we deal with it.

I bet you’re still a bit caught off guard when you read “a good cry brewing up”, right? Or maybe you were unphased, if so please send a message to my IG or email me separately, I’m curious why?

For me moving emotions is everything.

There once was a time where I would get into a, well, for lack of better words, “depressive state”. This heavy/stuck feeling where a week or two would go by and I was in a funk.

I began to feel that state come on early this week. It was growing. This time rather than feeling in a “depressive state” I felt and accepted an onset of emotions that I knew wouldn’t last, however, I would move through. I am proud of my ability to shift my perception and in reaching this milestone; where I can interpret early on my bodily warnings of something to pay attention to. I can welcome them in as my guests and understand them and entertain them in a way that serves me. I recommend any time of reflection and growth you see, as little as it is, to celebrate it.

It took me time to get here. At first, I would be taken over by emotions, frozen, locked in my blanket of uncomfort.

Then came the second phase, where I would be in the midst of an emotional storm, and as I was spiraling down I could recount my being here before. This level of awareness, brought me to understand I didn’t want to have these hopeless thoughts of being taken over by emotions and feeling depleted, yet I knew they kept occurring.

Now, I am at the point where they are welcomed, showing me a new perspective and that perhaps I’m hiding something from myself or that I need to be a little more loving or that I am just moving through an energy to release old habits.

For the future, I look forward to what next stage I’ll be in, how I will move with/through this feeling, and the quickness of realizing I am in a “mood”, “mood” because it isn’t always hopelessness, it can be sad, pressure, or new emotions.

My refresh rate is much quicker than it was in the first two stages. I attribute this to my Ritual’s Practice. I have rituals for everything. The good, the bad, and the quite confusing in between. In this instance, when the cry is a brewing I know it’s time to slow down. To spend time alone to nurture and do all my favorite things to relax. This includes lavender and heaps of it in all forms.

First, I start with a little playlist of soft meditative music to activate and send a little message to my brain that it’s about to go down, we’re grounding and relaxing so tell everyone working hard up there to have the day off.

I incorporate some body movement or sometimes lay on my mat in between moving and holding still until I am more in my body.

Body activation time. I switch over to my “slowly loving” playlist and take a long steamy shower. I have two different shampoos. A little particular and funny. However, I found power in smells and signaling to my receptors with the scent that it’s time to be guided and loved or romanced. I know myself and one is for the arousal and sensual awakening. One is for my hair maintenance. I use the first. It smells of argan which already puts me in such a titillating state and allows my brain to know it’s time for sensual love-making to myself. Then I rinse off with a lavender Dr. Bronner’s soap. I emphasize the rubs and hugs I enact as I shower a form of active meditation. I rinse off the days; days that piled on the thoughts, thoughts that don’t serve me, and the feelings that are coming on won’t attach to me. Bringing my attention into the present with smells, touch, and sounds. I’ll sing or whisper a few affirmations if my Throat feels like it’s ready to open up to my Heart. Sometimes, Throat’s not ready, so the Heart waits patiently and tends to its needs. Showers for me are a ritual and I implement them with intention to cleanse and clarify.

A fresh clean start for a step closer to more love-making to myself. My love-making is multi-dimensional. I bring in this next step and love it oh so much, it is a testament to my journey. The power of writing love notes. Love notes to myself. Love notes to my past self. Love notes to my present self. Love notes to my future self. Quantum love writing is my next ritual. I light a scented candle that I’m in love with at that time. I always keep them on hand for love-making like this or, at least, mindfully chosen incense. The scents and music still lingering around me creating a soft bubble of my CHOSEN state, a safe and secure place my nervous system can recognize and ease into to open up as I start to write. Times I honor and commend myself. Other times I speak in future terms of where I desire to be and dream of when I’ve gotten through this moment and made it out the other end to celebrate both calls upon me’s. Finishing off with Love, Cami, and a date. My love note I tuck away for another time self to read.

Pushing the boil button on my beloved Bonavita kettle. I gather herbs and flowers, this time lavender and chamomile to make a tea blend as the water heats up. I set out my tea set and pick a deck of cards. Go back to the kettle and pour warmth to Cami herbal tisane. Fanning out the cards, as the water infuses the potion, I intend to relax and comfort my insides as I read my card of affirmation. A big inhale. Intention set. Card pulled. I laugh. Mai Bhago the warrior saint. “I am a warrior of love. My devotion attracts resources and support. The Universe, God, my spirit guides have a funny sense of humor. They all provide me with words of wisdom I already knew. They are all there for me as I was always there for myself. I knew I’d be ok. I knew I’d get through this. I can’t help but laugh a little more for they send me signs always and this laugh is my throat telling my heart it’s all going to be ok.

These are my Rituals.This is the Cami Tea Remedy. I practice for when the storm is brewing. For when I need to retreat, to protect myself. For when I’ve been worn down, perhaps, unattentive to my emotional body, and unable to go play out in the water during the storm. Some days I am strong. Strong where I am able to dance in the rain, and run in the water, in the rain, and not be afraid to be struck by lightning. Other days I retreat afraid of the dark clouds, and practice my Rituals of sensual pleasure, Tea, and devotion to my journey. For I know it’s not a setback, it’s not all over; it is just time to love and keep moving forward.

This Ritual is not for every emotion, however every emotion I have a Ritual. Piqued your curiousiTEA to learn more? I’m curious to learn of your interest, so let’s build communiTEA and shoot me a message.

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